Saturday, October 29, 2011

You can accept or reject the way you were treated....

You 
can 
accept or reject
 the way
 you were treated 
by other people
but until 
YOU 
heal
the wounds of the past
you are going to 
bleed.
 You can bandage the bleeding
 with food,
 with alcohol with drugs,
 with work,
 with cigarettes
 with sex,
 but eventually,
 it will ooze through and stain your life.
 You must find the 
strength 
to open the wounds,
 stick your hands inside,
 pull out the
 core of the pain
 that is holding you in your past,
 the memories,
 and make 
peace 
with them.

Iyanla Vanzant

Thursday, October 27, 2011

This is the type of world I want to live in......

Really love this message.... it shouldn't take this.


POWER

I love MUSIC

I love the POWER some songs instill in us.

This one is hitting home right now.... ENJOY

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Laughing is better



Fair dinkum .. Would it kill The Man to read his referral BEFORE sending me, us, EVERYONE.. on a wild goose chase ALL over the hospital.. LOL


Tells me he is as anxiety ridden as the rest of us when it comes to being here at the RBH..


So far we've managed to harass urology, pathology, urology again and now he's headed to medical imaging..


Which apparently was today's destination all along.. Good to know these things.. Oh yes .. And he had to have a full bladder .. oh my goodness.. And he also had to do a mid stream urine test after this fasting so he had NOTHING to give them.. Too funny.. (like the 3 drops in 20 minutes that had JD and I in stitches laughing...)


Then .. Because you knew there would be more.. We've put him in a wheelchair so he can survive the day with the least amount of pain possible and TJ and JD have something new to fight/debate/irritate me about and TJ it seems is not able to cope if he's not touching the wheelchair in some way.. I wish I took a photo of him almost asleep on a wheel....lol.. sad.


Our not at all healthy lunch/snack. Potato gems are a tradition for the boys so we had to follow that tradition. 


We left him in medical imaging.. checking occasionally because the bladder wasn't full then it was too full so it took a while..lol. So JD did multiple trips to check if he was ready.... then we're painting and drawing quietly and da da... he managed to wheel himself down.. only he did a few side trips without us... he went back to bloody urology ????? I guess he needs them to know of his existence..



Peace xx

Monday, October 24, 2011

Family Time

Well dinner turned into a lateish  Red Thai Curry that was simply delish.... we have a family tradition in the kitchen. ... well it turned into a family tradition about the time I stopped being a martyr in the kitchen. Now the rule is 'if I'm in the kitchen getting a meal ready.... we're all in the kitchen getting a meal ready" :)  and with that simple 'rule comes a tradition'.


The upside of course is I have my family around me. We talk, communicate, occasionally argue..lol, they playfight, sometimes wrestle, sometimes drive me freakin' crazy, but we are together and I'm aware that having a 19 year old... it won't be forever so I'm taking what I can, while I can. The downside is there are 5 in the kitchen....LOL...  


peace xxx

Hospital Day

We're off too the hospital today.. A semi regular occurrence for us. The Man (DH) has a rare neurological called Transverse Myelitis which was triggered when he had a Flu vaccination in 2007. It's been an interesting journey for our family since then.

Going to the hospital triggers memories for us all. The youngest TJ is refusing to come today (not happening) and I see JD stalling a little bit too.. Yeah not a favourite place but I've always tried to make good memories too..

More coming today..


Peace

Saturday, October 22, 2011

What's for Dinner?

I DON"T KNOW... 


Help me.. I have chicken breasts and steaks in the fridge. I need to cook one and freeze the other........!!!!!!!!!!


Maybe a Honey Mustard Chicken... mmm. or Steak Sandwiches... 


NUH.. I still don't know... 


Sharing the mundane is something else I do well.... or not..lol


peace 






updated  4 hours later I still don't have a clue.. looks like they'll be starving tonight.... oops

Rest Day

Yesterday we had a day planned with 3 must do items.

  1. Take Minigoat to abseiling (he helps Scouts have their first abseiling experience and has been busy on the courses all year.) 
  2. Take JD to a semi-formal - his first and probably only semi, his first DATE, his first +1
  3. Pick up Minigoat from work (he went after abseiling) and pick JD up from the semi-formal.
The rest of the day I planned to paint... paint... paint. 

Instead it went like this * sigh
  1. take Minigoat to abseiling
  2. received an 'alert' from my calendar telling me a Joey Scout event should be on that I should have been notified about that I wanted to attend. Arranged to meet the participants in the city at 1pm so I could take some photos and catch up with the darling Joey Scouts... 
  3. tear about the house looking for documents I had put somewhere 'safe'. I did and they were still in my bloody diary where I left them. The diary was in my hand most of the time I was searching for the document... doh doh doh and they were always 'safe'
  4. called my BESTEST GIRLFRIEND... AKA the BITCH...said with all the love in the world and talked for AGES.. as we should when we can ... not often enough.. she lives in Newcastle... INSERT HUGE SAD FACE
  5. caught up with an 'old' friend who I'd lost contact with 20 years ago...... facebook can be wonderful
  6. typed up draft emails for the week..... 
  7. left a message for website domain peeps (another scoutie job) to get back to me in regards to 7 yes 7 websites I'm hoping to get launched this year.
  8. read some blogs.. cause I CAN                    *pokes tongue out cheekily.. 
  9. took a phone call re the websites.... yay.. looks like I can get moving pretty fast.. phew
  10. rescued a crow from a young adolescent male Brush Turkey who was chasing and jumping on the crow.
  11. removed multiple ticks from crow. The crow was more than happy for us to do this.(I should add we rescued another crow when it was trapped under a tree a couple of years ago and he and his family live on the property..we have no problem with them - the turkeys are another matter.)
  12. pondered what our next move should be about the crow.. was unable to fly.. :( 
  13. called 1800 ANIMAL which is actually the RSPCA and was advised to take the crow to the local Vet.
  14. realised on way to the Vet there was NO WAY I would make it to the city for my meeting. Rang and apologised... :(( I wanted to go for just a little while.. arranged to meet at the den later for a group photo and pizza.. before the lights out.
  15. Delivered crow and made sure if the crow was to be released it would be here at home... don't want to think about the other possibility. ... still I've cried tears for the crow. Praying he'll be home soon though.
  16. Went to visit Minigoat at abseiling... 
  17. Ran into some friends/fellow leaders from Scouts, had a chat and a laugh. Can now delete 2 emails when I get home.
  18. Pretended I wasn't visiting Minigoat at abseiling and checked one of my Cub Scout packs who were abseiling... shhhhhh.. ( I can multitask)  took photos for websites.. 
  19. watched the abseil team help a young special needs Cub down the wall... nearly cried when I saw the look of 'wow look what I did on his face... special moment'
  20. left after pinching some mulberries from the park... mmmmm
  21. I'M EXHAUSTED....just need to add that.... remembered to eat lunch
  22. Waited while my gorgeous son got ready for the semi-formal by reading more blogs...
  23. Delivered JD to the address supplied... found out where I had to pick him up...lol I needed that part..
  24. Thought I would make a late dash into the city... I'm uniformed up and heading that way when I get an emergency call from work... JO WE NEED YOU
  25. raced home, got changed and went to work.. texted to say I couldn't make the pizza or photos.. was told I'd be missed... I missed them.... :(((( big sad face. 
  26. Grab MG - we work at the same place, and head to city to pick up JD
  27. HOME - BED I never did pick up my art journal...sighs....
peace xxxx

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Shock and Awe

We love being Scout Leaders and sometimes the darlings send us spinning and we have to figure out an appropriate way to deal with it. 

Recently on a camp one of our lads decided to put butane in a fire pit to 'assist' the lighting of the fire which resulted in a the whoosh of flames leaping out and almost burning 6 Scouts.

What to do??... we pondered as Leaders. I suggested we go in with a shock and awe approach. 

SHOCK AND AWE IT WAS - we decided we wanted them to see the consequences. Talking about fire safety, having the Rural Fire Brigade come and visit obviously had not worked. We wanted to scare the living daylights out of them... 

I grabbed some photos to put into a small slideshow of 2nd and 3rd degree burns and we sat the unsuspecting Scouts down after they had finished the evenings activities. I checked with the Group Leader and shaking in my boots I let them see the realities of what 

I talked about Butane gas and the way it works, I talked about the operations a burns victim would experience throughout their life, I talked about airways being compromised by hot air and I showed them the photos.. Of people burnt by a campfire.. and they went quiet. I talked about how to put a fire out, of the importance of having buckets of water near a campfire and then I hit them with the big one.. told them they would only be allowed to eat salads on camp if they were caught being unsafe around a fire again... (hit them where it hurts.. the stomach...lol) 

I told them how important they are to me..  told them that I don't see them as just Scouts.. I see them as MY kids and that their safety is the most important thing to me.   

I hope they got the message 

As the parents came to pick them up I warned them if there were any nightmares it was my doing ..... but explained the rationale behind the decision and they were all very happy with what we did except one Mum who asked me if it was a good thing to do psychologically? 

 Was it?

 As I told her - I would rather them have a sleepless night or two thinking about how close six of them came to being burnt and knowing the consequences compared to not saying anything and having 6 Scouts in hospital because 1 of them was stupid around a fire and the rest didn't do anything to stop them.




I've waited a couple of days since writing this to publish.. I'm still working on my chicken side...lol BUT I was talking to the Scouts at another event when we had a debrief. They brought it up and I asked if they think the message was taken... what did you learn on Thursday night? ... I was told with the straightest of faces 'not to eat before going to Scouts.." LMAO.. then with a smile the same young man told me he thought it was good we showed the photos so he can make sure he never has to see it in real life with his friends or family.... I feel better about it now. 

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Healing wounds

If you don't heal the wound you continue to bleed and that wound that you carry in to the future .... I missed the rest of it... 


I made a note of this..  I'm trying to remember where I heard  this quote and it's just not coming back to me  -  sorry I'm not stealing the quote just sharing..


It struck me as being so very true. Letting go of the past can be difficult. The people that wronged you and me, the events that hurt us... that hurt people we love. 


If we don't heal that wound, that pain from the past, we carry it with us and it scars everything we do. 


I'm still working on that.. It makes sense to put some energy into it. Heal and move forward.  :)


Seeing beauty like this make me feel at peace... like maybe I am moving in the right direction.






peace....

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Thoughts....

I've been reminiscing today. 


A couple of years ago my online world consisted surfing.. blogs blogs and more blogs. I NEVER considered having a blog.. (well maybe a tiny little bit in the back of my head I had a little wish.. ) I never thought I would be here.. I know 2nd time around but still .. I never thought I had anything others would want to hear. 


I thought having a blog was all about ego.. I don't mean other people having a blog I meant me. I thought it was egotistical of me to want to have a blog. I'm not into things like other people. Fashion.. blah. Shoes.. blah blah. plus there are plenty of beautiful clothing and shoe blogs and I had nothing to add to that conversation and the place I was in.. in my head... could not take the load of shoes, clothes, pretty things ..... I was in an ugly place. 


What's different this time around. I've grown up a little. I realise a blog is not about ego for me, it's about connection. To people with similar interests to myself. To people who have interests that I'm curious about. It is about having a conversation. To and fro. 


To share the beauty I find in the world.. like this 





Something that makes my heart sing a little louder and my heart beat a little slower. BTW I love turtles. 


So till next time.. enjoy the turtle and imagine like I did, what it must have been like to have that amazing animal swimming towards you..  


peace..xxx





Monday, October 10, 2011

I'mmmmm BACCCCCKKKKKK

Hi there - it's Woodpuddle, aka Jo or Joe here.. doing an introductory post.


Big Waves from Down Under. Queensland,  Australia  where most days it's beautiful.. except when it's not. :) and that's not too often.


I emptied my blogs.. wiped them clean a while back. It wasn't how I wanted ME to be represented any more. BUT I'm missing blogging. ALOT. I liked meeting new peeps who I had stuff in common with. 


I felt like I was whiny and moany and groany and that isn't how I am IRL. I was not being AUTHENTIC. I was putting my shit problems out there in cyberspace but NOT putting the GREAT STUFF.. THE HAPPY STUFF. The stuff that is the reality of my life.... in my defence I was going through alot so I guess the problems were my authentic life but when I looked back and read my blog.... I went back to the really really bad negative head space, the sadness, the fear, the suicide, the heartache, the issues with peeps I thought were friends. I was also being stalked by one who face to face was lovely but in the background a very dangerous nasty piece of work 'friend'. 


I'VE MOVED ON AND LIFE IS SPECTACULARLY UNREAL.


So I begin again and am hoping to have a balance.. and this time WOODPUDDLE stays. (that means I'm not allowed to delete posts unless I really really must.. which I mustn't - except when it's really really bad)


JD, Minigoat and TJ
What might you find here... well I babble on a lot in real life about absolute crap so I might do that here. 


We are all (that's mum, dad and the 3 boys) Scouts. ..Photo is a couple of years old but I don't have many of them in uniform together because of their ages they do different things at different times. Aren't they gorgeous. 


What else.. PHOTOS I love taking photos of animals.. sometimes good sometimes not so good but I'll pop them on here when I feel inspired.. Animals are a huge part of where we live.. we call home Woodpuddle. We have the marsupials, snakes, amphibians, cat, dog, fish... so I babble on about them occasionally. 


ART -- Now this is really important to me.. It's my release. When I'm painting or whatever, I'm not Mum, Jo, Joe, Woodpuddle... I'm just me having fun. I do mixed media art, art journaling, painting, drawing, sketching, doodling and all manner of other STUFF and I'll put links to my favourites that other people do.


I guess to learn more about me you'll have to come back. Please say hello!! 


Oh yeah.. if you're a troll and I doubt that you are but just in case you .. bugger off. I've dealt with your kind before and you won't win this time... :) 
The opinions on here are mine.. and only mine and if you you disagree so badly with what I think and say or with what another person has posted and the only way you can deal with it is to be nasty.. F*ck Off. I will delete your crap imediately. You're NOT welcome.


With that out of the way..  I say Hellloo from Woodpuddle.. aka Jo - I can't wait to get to know you all..